PCME Interview

had this interview with NgMY, my own chinese teacher. so…after the interview she told me the purpose of the interview…which is to test students’ understanding of the school’s 6 values. J-TIGER, which stand for Joy, Teamwork, Integrity, Globalperspective, Excellence and Resilience. actually they aren’t really “Values”, but just goals the school have set for the students and their way of teaching. or perhaps i think Integrity is the only one that can be considered as a “value”.

well, the interview started with my favourite value! or rather, the one that i think is most important. n naturally i said Joy, like i always do. my reasoning is that…wateva humans do, we’re actually seeking joy. working hard towards success, helping the less fortunate/needy, killing people ruthlessly…these can all be stuff people do to obtain their own joy. so of course, it is the most important. oh wait, it’s either me or the teacher that mentioned about people who strive to bring happiness and joy to other people. well, my answer to that is that they get their own joy when they bring it to others as well, bcoz they enjoy doing it.

and so i was asked how i define my own joy. actually there isn’t anything thru which i can get any bit of joy nowadays, but i just blurted out “friendship”. actually it’s the first thing that comes to my mind whenever i nid to answer similar questions. but it’s a really complicated issue actually, even though my teacher thought that my understanding of “joy” is shallow bcoz i limit it to friendship. well i din do that, i said people have their different ways. oh well, i din bother to argue with the teacher cos we’re in the school and the interview should not be a totally personal chat, so i should still…not defy her too much.

okay then next thing, she asked me about Integrity. well, integrity is seriously very important. LIKE REAL. lol. integrity is suckiest trait to have ever, bcoz it limits ur development in every way. anybody who reads this and objects…please come tell me why. lol. oh n i discussed with my mom, n she was able to express her thoughts much better than me…”Integrity is an advantage to others, a disadvantage to yourself”. it’s so ironic, that me n my mom know about this but we’re so born with integrity that it’s impossible to shake it off. n i mean it. my father tried to discuss…but he couldn’t make any point out of wat he wanted to say. oh and the teacher was kinda funny…she agreed with the examples i made about my uncle’s and my parent’s friend’s involvement in politics in china. but later she goes on to give me examples of how people with no integrity can never truly accomplish anything and wateva they get are fake and will never be appreciated by anybody. well then i wud say, people who accomplish with lack of integrity fulfill their goals and are happy. people who have infinite integrity but cannot succeed are UNhappy. those who succeed with integrity are only good tools for others, to use as examples to teach the young of the importance of integrity. well, this is how this world works. in fact, i was receiving this teaching when i went thru the interview. i realized that back then and had thus had no intention of fighting back.

but in the first place, that interview was meant for students to talk crap and tell the teachers wat they should be hearing so that they can get their “Excellent” grade, which i think is meaningless. so im kinda extra…in being honest and showing my integrity. which makes it ironic again since i condemn integrity.

summary: the teacher’s behaviour was weird, duno why she wanted to give me more time to earn a better grade. n then her points seem to me kind of contradictory to each other, somehow. her conclusion was that my thoughts and feelings are dark and pressimistic, though i wud prefer the term “realistic” or “materialistic”. overall time spent for interview, 1hr20min as compared to 15min last year.

Noob

Hainan camp today, confirmed that we’re coming back on 17th, supposedly late afternoon or evening, so i probably wont be able to make it for the JC Dance Night. n then the teacher was asking for volunteer performers for the Hainan exchange(part of the camp). i so wanted to give it a shot, but was discouraged by the knowledge that im still NOOB.

before that in class…while waiting for the camp briefing to begin, we discussed and tried dancing. heh, though i seemed quite pro to my classmates, i know my standard’s not enuff…dat’s why im seriously considering taking up external dancing lessons. either hiphop or break, cos i can relate well to these 2 types. hiphop is cool while break is shocking(mostly with the power moves). n i wish so much dat i’d get into MAD, lol. im thinking of it as real fun, to dance as a CCA.

oh. and someone just “officially” agreed with my reasonings for why “Life is Meaningless!” well, nobody has been able to prove me wrong so far, neither has anybody opposed that idea.

will anybody like to convince me im wrong? if u succeed, u might even save my life from the endless miseries and aimless wandering. u’d be the savior of my life. lol

Happy Post

see wat’s in the picture.. i couldnt take it from the front because there was a bush there…if not the earthworm could be seen… it was kinda cool.

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I passed my napfa test with a bronze. heh.
final result was…
shuttle run - 10.6s(C?D?)
Sit&Reach - 47cm(A)
Standing Broad Jump - 230+cm(B?C?)
Sit Up - 43(A)
Pull Up - 4(5 one leh! the pe teacher so short cannot see then say not counted. !!!!!)(D)
2.4km - 13.48(E, lalala)

great that i passed within 1 try. then this wk we were allowed to play soccer on the field. heh, though it’s been about 3yrs+ since i kicked a soccer ball, i cud still score 2 goals lol, which were the only ones in the whole game. well, the opponents were kinda violent but noob.

oh and my friend went to ask if he cud do Pull Up again. then the teacher in charge of that station(new female teacher) said that she wud take the lowest score….so that means if u failed the first time n u passed the 2nd time…u still fail. LoL. the 2 new PE teachers are both kinda retarded, english even lousier than the old pe teachers. and they like to be sarcastic and provocative, no matter wat trivial matter upset them.

and then just after searching online for ABRSM practical exam results, last sunday, my teacher knocked and said she got my results. and i got 110/150 which is an average pass 10 points from merit and failure respectively. kinda glad, considering the kind of luck i had on the day, with hiccups here and there for 3pieces and scales, CONTEMPORARY music for sightreading and a chiongster examiner(the whole thing took only 20min).
i wonder who actually still reads this blog… lol

Movies

just found anice website to watch most english movies. so i watched 10,000BC and Step Up(2006). tried watching high school musical(again). but the link was faulty. aw.

well, 10,000BC’s climax is really disappointing. it’s all about this person gathering up his “army” and save some girl who represents the god or something. and then the last scene is just copying the 300Spartans. just except if i didn’t remember wrongly, the spear in 300 didn’t hit the target while this one is 10000 did. WOW. i jus noticed both these movies have a big number in their names. well, perhaps we can say that 10,000BC is more impressive with the BIGGER number. whee~ but actually i think the opposite.

now for Step Up. 1 & 2. lez Compare and Contrast. i personally enjoy 2 more. cos it’s got more of bboying. it’s not called “Streets” for nuthin. but im guessing those who prefer a nice plot wud luv 1. that one, they got someone dying, and though it was just a minor part of the show and they didn’t really show how sad the people were due to the death of the person close to them…it was still very touching(for me at least). the funny part, though, is that the male lead can go on a stage and perform their choreo without practicing at all for a few weeks prior to the performance. he just went there last minute and asked his partner if she would let him join in and dance together. how irresponsible, i thought. well, at least it helped to give us a satisfying Happily Ever After kind of feeling. well, i wanna say again, that these 2 movies are SOOO cool.

i jus watched the chinese tv show 华文智多星. there’s RI today, and the sec4 PRCs they sent out totally pwned the rest. haiya. i duno whether it’s right for me to say but i thought those people from other schools kinda suk, considering they were comparably good in their school to represent their school… well, they couldn’t even write their words properly. 字体一个两个像狗爬. that’s wat my mom and her good friends always say about MY handwriting. LoL. i saw this person who wrote the word “击” with the upper 土 and the lower 山 unattached. i literally LOLed at it. oops. i spent such a long paragraph to talk abt this.

i finally start to feel busy now. with tests this thur.fri,sat and nxt thur. well there’re lots more coming, maybe even this week, just that i forgot about it. lol. i dun really rmbr all the test dates.

WAIT.

I almost forgot to report on my NAPFA today! 2.4km run/walk: 13.48min(E). 0.08min away from D grade
alright. it’s not good i know, but at least i passed without having to run 5 times.
for the other 5 items…no sweat. lol. everything else might/sure get A except for Pull Up(Chin Up). that one i can do a maximum of 3 now, without kicking or jumping for the first one. actually it doesnt really much. after all, i just have to pass everything, since i got E for 2.4km. that’s one burden lifted.

IHC time

Bad Day

today was really kind horrible.

FIrst thing in the morning. for once i actually wished that the person who’s gonna sit nxt to me wont be a girl. cos i wanna sleep and i’ve seen people totally embarrassing themselves as their body swaying here and there, before they wake up and realize it.  n then it happened. and it was like the only “girl” on e bus. dam sian

then in school. nid to write chinese compo. it’s kinda crap i think i chose the wrong question. cos it’s really weird, that i chose to write about Teens inappropriate ways of using the internet:unsafe friend-finding, illegal downloading and “对利用网络造福社会不够热心”.  quite obviously i’m supposed to criticize about these things and suggest how to improve. but i only realized it’s so ironic after i started writing about these teens and asked myself…”isn’t this me?” i ended up crapping for the back part…

after that i had to attend this HSK(汉语水平考试) preparation tutorial. we were introduced to the fact that the paper we’ll be sitting for has compo, aural and oral. and according to my classmates the one they took last yr(which i din) had 90% MCQ. well, i’ve certainly got myself into whole lot of trouble.

n den after that i reached home at 5pm and decided i want to play basketball. so i asked my papa to go down with me…n then after playing a while, 4 sec1 Shuqun sec people came. 2 of them wanted to have a match. i soooo didn’t want that! i would be actually having a teammate who doesnt even know the rules, sucks at dribbling, can’t grab ball properly, etc. lol. well, no choice, since i was the only one rejecting it. there was a prettygirl with them, the “cute lil sis” type. but it was kinda irritating, the way she spoke to her frenz. i don’t know how to explain, and perhaps some people would even find it attractive, BUT i just found it detestable. then she was like soooo scared of the ball. when the ball nearly reached her halfway thru the match she was like so dam scared. like WTH the ball wasn’t even moving fast. worse than my mom la. zz.

duno why now i getting sexist. (is that the right word?) maybe it’s cos i met too many feminist peeps and argued many times to reject their weird perspectives.

OUCH. i just scratched open my wound. omg bleeding a lot. stopping here

Guitar

mood: super annoyed.

it’s sabbaticals week, im in Guitar. it’s tough but the sound is really nice. hope it doesnt affect my playing piano though. consulted my piano teacher and she said it might affect a bit if u practice guitar too much. cos the skin on ur left hand fingers will harden and that will affect ur feel of the piano keys, so im assuming it will affect the ability to control loudness.

i hope to be able to play First Kiss(similar to 彩虹) and 淡水海边. they’re such nice songs.
anywas below is something some people finally managed to produce after some serious photographic lessons:

so thats a black one. there were 3 other colors..blue red and sunburst(typical orange). 3ppl bought blue 1 bought red and i was the only one who got a black. but seriously i think black is the best.

Exam

somehow i find this exam extremely important, even more than PSLE.

and how much effort have i put in? not much. seriously. ok i admit. VERY LITTLE.

time is really running out. there’re only about 2.3 wks before the day. i think i should make some preparations to get myself ready. and maybe should also imagine myself having the exam so when the real thing comes i wont be too nervous… hope the examiner is nice, like last time’s, who gave me a D for gr6. that was definitely the most important factor that drove me to resume piano after a 6-month interval. the result for this exam’s gonna have some kind of big impact on me as well.

i think i’ll take a vid of my exam songs. that’ll probably be like having an examiner listening. but hope i can still rmbr saying this tmr. my memory is failing.

oh and today was x-country. i ran. i completed. i felt like i almost died. i was still feeling totally alright when i walked around the finishing line, trying to find some classmates and also getting back my breath. but when i finally found one and decided to go back to my classroom. this sudden dizziness caught up and i had to rush and get a seat before i faint. i put my head on the table and tried to fall asleep but i couldn’t. i fought with lack of oxygen for about 15min before i gave up and tried a different approach. i went to the water cooler and drank water…and felt BETTER! but after i went back to sit down, the weird uneasy feeling came back again. i think it’s lack of oxygen + dehydration + digestive problem bah. n uh, i kept yawning on my way back home… (yawning gives people more oxygen right?)

oh i forgot to say. i farted and burped a lot when i was feeling unwell. and then when i reached home, whole load of stuff came out and i felt much better. so that explains why i said digestive problem earlier.

off-topic: now and then, i keep feeling strange yells that echo around in my head, n i clearly rmbr first experiencing it in my nightmare when i was having a fever long long time ago. wonder if it’ll stick with me for life.

interesting day..

let me recall.

morning: for the first time i din sleep immediately after reaching the classroom. saw a fren in scout uniform on bus cos it’s scouts day.

lessons: math - 36/40 and geog 21/25. best day yet. but my overall msg is alrdy 2.15. so high.. sighs.

co: had sec 1s. new sheng players: yi da and *khia yi. they’re kinda nice. again i think one of them is shy while the other is not. this has always been the pattern i think.

end of co: wanted to go watch some drama thing but i thought i really look too young, more like high school student rather than college. but actually when i came back home and looked at myself in the mirror, i looked okay, that is if i dun smile or laugh. cos my eyes go really small when i laugh and then…uh no jc look lor.

so pangsehed justin and now im home. sighs, im so bored but tired here. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .. . . . . . . . . . . . . . .(can i dot on like this forever. . . . ?

*yijing corrected me about the spelling. thx

Tests!

yep. tests. just screwed chemistry today. but i was rather amused by the passage in the english compre test taken 2/3 wks ago. onglp marks too slow…so we only got it back today.

it was something about Friendships among Men. strangely, i agree with everything the writer said in the passage. it basically summed up quite a lot of thoughts i have when im daydreaming/stoning. but maybe it’s like this because all the things listed are almost factual? i’m not sure…

stuff like unnecessary competitiveness, avoid getting emotional in conversations, reluctance to acknowledge one’s weaknesses, etc.

much of these are quite true, especially in adults i think. the way they think thoroughly about wat’s on their mind before expressing it out in words so that is has a positive effect on the conversation and now letting others in to ur emotional world, which might pose a threat? i think it is truly evident in China, where everything is just so fake. u look at the hosts of those large-scale concerts, they definitely memorized their scripts word by word. they can be saying something joyous that fits the occasion but i always have the feeling they are thinking of something else. and seriously, i dun think the audience agree to wat crap that comes out, but everybody’s like just putting on a show and clapping for the sake of clapping.

if you look at those speeches made by political leaders in china, they’re even worse. wat they say and the way they say it seems like propaganda to me. it’s all idealistic goals and dreams that gather support from the public. sometimes i even hav goosebumps when my father watches the same news more than 2 times.

well. isn’t it ironic i just said these things. hm.

English Test Content

this is what i’m gonna be tested for tomorrow i think. just taking this chance to memorize

The Justice Statement says that the mission of the subordinate courts is to Administer Justice.

The three goals of Singapore’s subordinate courts:

1. Administer effectively
2. Decide and resolve justly
3. Preserve public trust and confidence

The four Divisions of Justice are:

1. Civil Justice Division
2. Criminal Justice Division
3. Family Justice Division
4. Juvenile Justice Division

The philosophies/guidelines by which the Four Divisions of Justice deal with cases.

1. Civil Justice Division - to monitor the smooth and timely flow of cases
2. Criminal Justice Division - the supremacy of the rule of law, the protection of the public
3. Family Justice Division - to protect family obligations
4. Juvenile Justice Division - to recognize potential for change and reform in young offenders and delinquent youths

What are the functions of each of the follow courts?

Coroner’s Court - Deals with cases which are classified by the police as coroner’s cases, in which a person is suspected to have died suddenly or in a unnatural manner.

Night Court - Deals with regulatory and traffic offences. Functions for working public who would otherwise have to take time off work to attend court.

Small Claims Tribunal - Deals with claims arising from contract or damage caused to property, involving less than $20,000 of money.

What is BPC?

Beyond Parental Control. In these cases, the parents have to lodge a complaint to the court about their children. They have to bring their child to the court to do so and if they are unable to do that, the court will issue a warrant of arrest for the child and bring him to court. Before all this, though, a social worker from Singapore’s Children Society will attend to the parents and children to try and resolve the problem without going to court.

something about Bureau that provides criminal legal aid, in terms of financial assistance.

oh wells, im just memorizing blindly without knowing the meanings here n there. crap im dead beat.