Exam

somehow i find this exam extremely important, even more than PSLE.

and how much effort have i put in? not much. seriously. ok i admit. VERY LITTLE.

time is really running out. there’re only about 2.3 wks before the day. i think i should make some preparations to get myself ready. and maybe should also imagine myself having the exam so when the real thing comes i wont be too nervous… hope the examiner is nice, like last time’s, who gave me a D for gr6. that was definitely the most important factor that drove me to resume piano after a 6-month interval. the result for this exam’s gonna have some kind of big impact on me as well.

i think i’ll take a vid of my exam songs. that’ll probably be like having an examiner listening. but hope i can still rmbr saying this tmr. my memory is failing.

oh and today was x-country. i ran. i completed. i felt like i almost died. i was still feeling totally alright when i walked around the finishing line, trying to find some classmates and also getting back my breath. but when i finally found one and decided to go back to my classroom. this sudden dizziness caught up and i had to rush and get a seat before i faint. i put my head on the table and tried to fall asleep but i couldn’t. i fought with lack of oxygen for about 15min before i gave up and tried a different approach. i went to the water cooler and drank water…and felt BETTER! but after i went back to sit down, the weird uneasy feeling came back again. i think it’s lack of oxygen + dehydration + digestive problem bah. n uh, i kept yawning on my way back home… (yawning gives people more oxygen right?)

oh i forgot to say. i farted and burped a lot when i was feeling unwell. and then when i reached home, whole load of stuff came out and i felt much better. so that explains why i said digestive problem earlier.

off-topic: now and then, i keep feeling strange yells that echo around in my head, n i clearly rmbr first experiencing it in my nightmare when i was having a fever long long time ago. wonder if it’ll stick with me for life.

Eating

im eating my lunch now. a plate of 炒年糕.

it totally sux, i hate it. i seriously wonder why my parents LOVE it so much.

my father said it’s not cooked enuff and it’s quite tough. so my mom asked me if it’s really true and i said no. then my mom asked me if it’s nice directly after that and i immediately said no again

just love the feeling of doing that.  but it’s not my fault right? i’ve always complained about eating this kind of thing for years and they dun care. everytime my mom cooks it she’ll ask if it’s nice and when i say NO, she will be angry.

my parents are both like that. you cant say anything bad about my mom’s cooking. my father’s worse, you cant say ANY SINGLE BAD THING about him, ANYTHING! whenever i forgot about it and pointed out his mistake or just anything slightly negative, he would get back at you no matter what.

sometimes i wonder. are they really my parents, or even ‘adults’?

interesting day..

let me recall.

morning: for the first time i din sleep immediately after reaching the classroom. saw a fren in scout uniform on bus cos it’s scouts day.

lessons: math - 36/40 and geog 21/25. best day yet. but my overall msg is alrdy 2.15. so high.. sighs.

co: had sec 1s. new sheng players: yi da and *khia yi. they’re kinda nice. again i think one of them is shy while the other is not. this has always been the pattern i think.

end of co: wanted to go watch some drama thing but i thought i really look too young, more like high school student rather than college. but actually when i came back home and looked at myself in the mirror, i looked okay, that is if i dun smile or laugh. cos my eyes go really small when i laugh and then…uh no jc look lor.

so pangsehed justin and now im home. sighs, im so bored but tired here. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .. . . . . . . . . . . . . . .(can i dot on like this forever. . . . ?

*yijing corrected me about the spelling. thx

Tests!

yep. tests. just screwed chemistry today. but i was rather amused by the passage in the english compre test taken 2/3 wks ago. onglp marks too slow…so we only got it back today.

it was something about Friendships among Men. strangely, i agree with everything the writer said in the passage. it basically summed up quite a lot of thoughts i have when im daydreaming/stoning. but maybe it’s like this because all the things listed are almost factual? i’m not sure…

stuff like unnecessary competitiveness, avoid getting emotional in conversations, reluctance to acknowledge one’s weaknesses, etc.

much of these are quite true, especially in adults i think. the way they think thoroughly about wat’s on their mind before expressing it out in words so that is has a positive effect on the conversation and now letting others in to ur emotional world, which might pose a threat? i think it is truly evident in China, where everything is just so fake. u look at the hosts of those large-scale concerts, they definitely memorized their scripts word by word. they can be saying something joyous that fits the occasion but i always have the feeling they are thinking of something else. and seriously, i dun think the audience agree to wat crap that comes out, but everybody’s like just putting on a show and clapping for the sake of clapping.

if you look at those speeches made by political leaders in china, they’re even worse. wat they say and the way they say it seems like propaganda to me. it’s all idealistic goals and dreams that gather support from the public. sometimes i even hav goosebumps when my father watches the same news more than 2 times.

well. isn’t it ironic i just said these things. hm.

Jap songs

anybody knows who that is…? …hm guess not? Ai Otsuka! im not the kind of person who’s really into jap stuff but just saw her concert on mtv asia channel…and thought the songs were really nice. the high songs weren’t too hyper or extreme. n no matter the tempo is fast or slow or moderate, they were all kinda sweet. or maybe it’s bcoz of her voice.

oh wait in chinese she’s  大塚 愛 read as da4 zhong3 ai4. (i think.) im not sure haha.

i think imma start looking for people who hav her songs. ( :

and long time ago someone sent me a bunch of jap songs which i just threw someone in a folder…(din meant it >< sorry) and i jus listened and and and…i realizeddd…they’re all very nice leh… din know jap songs appeal to me that much. oh well, maybe can ask for some more from him.

What do guys/girls say about you?

Only Friends.

Guys/girls look at you as only a friend. You have a great personality and people love you, but you also give people the feeling of being your older brother/sister. They’d protect you no matter what, but the idea of kissing you freaks them out!

yea. i agree. n shows how innocent i am. >.< i dun think i’ve grown up. inside…

n den i’ve nvr had any special feelings for anybody before, even though i indirectly said “i like you” to someone before. that time it was quite obviously fake. i was passive and didn’t even realize wat was going on then. we weren’t even less-than-average friends. conclusion: i was so confused that time i din know wat i was doing.

yea. so wrapping up, i’ve really felt any extra strong and weird feelings for anybody before.

i keep asking myself wat is liking someone. it’s like really so confusing and i doubt i’ve nvr felt it before.

haiyo. think abt this for wat. lame shyt tmr still got chem test.
someone come and tell me “the time will come for u to understand things” pls. ^_^

ps: try not to leave comments here but say to me in person or on msn. i feel weird commenting on my own blog to reply to people. thx

luV this s0ng

first introduced to me by someone with chew in the name. should thank chew so much. this songs rocks when u’re down

but hm. i wud nvr be able to be like the “me” in the song.

Safe in a Crazy World
Corrinne May

safe in a crazy world

I try to smile my tears away
I try to keep my cool
Oh but one more door gets in my way
I feel like such a fool
Trampled and bitter
My heart just wants to bleed and stop
Believing in me
It feels like nothing is for certain
and that nothing comes for free
When they’re lowering the curtain
to the theatre of my dreams
I stumble and I crumble and I’m
Sinking to my knees but you
You cradle me
You keep me flying
You keep me smiling
You keep me safe in a crazy world
You understand me
Embrace my fragility
You keep me safe in a crazy world
And in your arms I find the strength
to believe in me again
Noise keeps chasing me
No matter where I go
Oh and life likes pretending that it’s
When it’s hard to tell what’s real
From what the world just wants to preach
You are the voice I seek
You keep me flying
You keep me smiling
You keep me safe in a crazy world
You understand me
Embrace my fragility
You keep me safe in a crazy world
’cause when I’m wrapped up in your arms
Nothing else can touch me
What a wonderful way to recharge
I feel like I can breathe again
You keep me flying
You keep me smiling
You keep me safe in a crazy world
You understand me
Embrace my fragility
You keep me safe in a crazy world
And in your arms I find the strength
to believe in me again

Chinese New Year

yea i know it’s 1 year after chinese new year but i feel like summing everything up.

first day after celebrations i went to play dota and cs with co people as we cud go off early after our performance. i cant believe i actually played for 3hrs+ well, kinda regret it cos it was a waste of money la. then later on i reached home a continued playing on my own. this family came to visit us. we had dinner and i continued playing while they talked. after that, another family came the nxt day and the same thing happened. 3rd day nothing.

4th day was the most fun. cos i wasn’t the only child. or rather the other children were old enough for me to chat with. p3, p6 and sec4. the p6 boy is so cute, but i think yuting is still cuter. the p3 girl was kinda weird, but funny. there was once when she came close to me and asked me this strange question…”why are you so thin. and why is he so fat(referring to the p6)” she said it in a tone like it’s a secret. i was expecting to hear something interesting but when she finished the sentence i almost dropped to the floor, like those anime characters. lucky i was sitting down.

but the best thing was that there were someone of the same level as me. and we’re in the same kind of schools, learning same things and having roughly the same interests. (well not exactly.) and there were a lot of piano scores downloaded from the net. and there was also this book of jaychou songs. i had fun trying them. they were all those famous songs from movies/anime/blablabla. then those tough jaychou songs…we played one hand each and it got so easy. hah! i rarely hav any frens to play around with the piano together. and last time all those people were all so noob, i had to keep stopping here and there to wait for them. but not this time, so it’s much better.

then on the same day after dinner, the sec4 showed me some BoA dance videos(dam cool). and also we watched about 4 episodes of this funny china comedy. it was dam funny la, but the sec 4 had to explain some of the jokes cos they were too chim…

well, 5th day went another family’s house. was kinda bored. but that mom was “young at heart”. haha. she kept trying to bring me into the topics they talked about. so it wasn’t too bad. then they had 2 daughters p2 and p6. i rmbr when i was still young…our moms made us hold hands and walk around in a park. i still remember the scene when we played with sand in the playground. but after so many years, i almost forgot how their family look alrdy. then i think they also cannot recognize me if they see me on the street. i can rmbr we were quite close to them last time when they lived so close to us, just across the street. time flies indeed.

then just 2 days ago, my parents brought me to another family’s house. then this family got 2 sons. p1 and sec 2. the sec 2 is in my school. wow. cos he’s in ncc…he kept talking about ncc stuff. and it was mainly complaining about how this guy in my class niao/scold/punish the sec2s. haha i din realize my classmate can be that fierce, he’s like Mr.SuperGuai in my class. then found out those 2 sons are not allowed to play computer much. they cant even play maplestory properly. and of course they sucked when trying out dota. but the sec2 results dam good. last year msg 1.14. lol. kinda cool

hm. i’ve been using weird terms to refer to people hor? it’s coz i dun wanna sound like i know them very well. and why do i wanna do that? i hav no idea. >.<

Going down

co is like getting worse. wat justin said was so true. hai…im wondering if i should propose to separate percussion from wind, and maybe ask if it can combine with yq which makes it yqp like wat ny has. but seriously, percussion is like really different from wind. maybe giving percussion leader the name of SL will make him feel more responsible and perhaps it might help.

or maybe it’s my fault. the little enthusiasm for co in me has almost vanished, going to practices are now a must and not a want. but im not to be blamed totally..right? cos there are nobody to talk to now. nobody to discuss about things. those around me don’t like to talk at all. excited topic openers are quite often met with one-syllable responses, if not, nothing at all. then some people are so easily infuriated. there’s just only one who is still bubbly and always hyper. or maybe it’s bcoz there too few seniors around, that makes it so borin. gahh.forgeddit

(co performance screwed up badly today)

if i have the choice. i wud definitely not go co in JC.
(hesitated before typing this line, but i said it to everybody)

English Test Content

this is what i’m gonna be tested for tomorrow i think. just taking this chance to memorize

The Justice Statement says that the mission of the subordinate courts is to Administer Justice.

The three goals of Singapore’s subordinate courts:

1. Administer effectively
2. Decide and resolve justly
3. Preserve public trust and confidence

The four Divisions of Justice are:

1. Civil Justice Division
2. Criminal Justice Division
3. Family Justice Division
4. Juvenile Justice Division

The philosophies/guidelines by which the Four Divisions of Justice deal with cases.

1. Civil Justice Division - to monitor the smooth and timely flow of cases
2. Criminal Justice Division - the supremacy of the rule of law, the protection of the public
3. Family Justice Division - to protect family obligations
4. Juvenile Justice Division - to recognize potential for change and reform in young offenders and delinquent youths

What are the functions of each of the follow courts?

Coroner’s Court - Deals with cases which are classified by the police as coroner’s cases, in which a person is suspected to have died suddenly or in a unnatural manner.

Night Court - Deals with regulatory and traffic offences. Functions for working public who would otherwise have to take time off work to attend court.

Small Claims Tribunal - Deals with claims arising from contract or damage caused to property, involving less than $20,000 of money.

What is BPC?

Beyond Parental Control. In these cases, the parents have to lodge a complaint to the court about their children. They have to bring their child to the court to do so and if they are unable to do that, the court will issue a warrant of arrest for the child and bring him to court. Before all this, though, a social worker from Singapore’s Children Society will attend to the parents and children to try and resolve the problem without going to court.

something about Bureau that provides criminal legal aid, in terms of financial assistance.

oh wells, im just memorizing blindly without knowing the meanings here n there. crap im dead beat.