it was at that gate.
when i went W T _.
sorry, fill in the blank urself.
ps: if u think u know wat im talking abt, u probably dont.
overload.
so much happened within such a short period of time. getting a little hard for me to cope.
major screwups but noticeable successes. the former overpowers the latter tho, for me.
mixed feelings, dont know wat to say. but nobody to say to anyway.
summary: im kinda sad n it’s no good
conclusion: i dont know wat to do.
yea
n there’s still some proving to do. nah, not some but a lot. n it’s not math im talking abt. -.-
my liking for evanyo’s songs has become a love. it just appeals to me so much i cry singing it.
Stay with me, at the same old place, please.
shows
performed like 2 times per day for the past 2 days.
the first i was very much not myself. (still cant believe how tense i got and how suky i got, im not satisfied coz it just wasnt the best)
the rest rocked. yea, i gave my all.. hiccups here n there.. but it was defeinitely the most enjoyable experience ever. it just feels good when u know wat u’re doing and that someone is looking at it.
geez the unfortunate thing is i got so much to improve on now. seniors, why do u all have to own so badly? now i’m just too motivated to practise so much harder ><
<3 DanceNight ‘09 Back Again
self dejection
teared tearing, i suk.
but i really enjoyed oddball performance.
it wasnt the best dance, but it was OUR dance.
new friends? like lol.
in some sense i think im becoming like justin, and the opposite of him. die. im becoming highly critical of so many people around me, to the extent of being so freakin annoyed and even hating them. i think i suk badly now… my personality is rotting. i rmbr the high sch days when im fine with everybody even when i know some of them hate/despise/detest me for reasons i find lame. now it’s a bit like the other way round.
n then major issue with this is that i must still put up a friendly front bcoz not doing so would lead to severe conflicts. n it’s not worth sacrificing my mood for them. im becoming somewhat a hypocrite, trying my best to conceal my distaste. to a certain extent, im blaming these problems to the presence of g***s. but im definitely not dicscriminating against them, the problems lies with g***s, not g***s. LoL. i just realized few ppl will understand my previous sentence =D.
damn. im becoming more n more impatient with anything class-related, my own agitation is suffocating me. only the company of my cca mates (both former and current) relieves me from the stress.
note: regarding the people im referring to in the post… if you’re close to me, you should know it’s not u and if u’re not… sorry but i dont really care.. aw.
嗯,谢谢
真正的快乐
你施舍的，
我紧握着。
Love them ytd today tmr
blog stalked, just.
the simple sentences, the plain words, moved me to tears. it’s strange how every single word can move me so much. i admire them. n im grateful they made me their friend.
moving on, hcico sheng outing rocked. however unhigh i think it was, we enjoyed the time spent with one another, juniors and seniors alike. you guys make me feel my life’s worth it =D
i must say i am damned lucky. cos im starting to like my new cca, too. the seniors are cool, as in nice. i realized this only recently coz before that i thought they weren’t.. oops xD ok wateva. hiphop rox n im lovin it.
os enola
with a pissed off, i start this post.
im becoming antisocial, very. almost not talking to anybody, at all. feels rather like there’s nobody i feel comfortable talking to and nobody to listen. the smallest attention from frens now can be hard to grab. sighs. sinking in loneliness… someone tell me wat to do. maybe it’s my own fault, n perhaps i brought this upon myself by selfishly choosing my interest over my friends, a month ago. (please dont comment abt this) maybe i can start trying to be a super nice person. that might actually work out.
i really dont know.
alright SHENG OUTING this saturday! 5 more days.. but cant wait to meet up with my favourite bunch again~ it’s the only group of people i feel really, totally comfortable with. oo i just love them. ^^
